Love

I feel like there is a lot to say on this subject... And the way you view it forms who you are in a lot of ways.

Are you one who loves well? Do I love people well? What is love anyway... Oh wait, the bible defines it and it's pretty intense. Love is patient, love is kind, it is not easily angered nor does it hold any record of wrong... We could stop right there... Holds NO record of wrong?! So that list I have in my head of things I can recall way too quickly in areas I feel like I've been wronged... Not exactly biblical. This list wouldn't be a problem if I didn't want to love people well, so there's one option. Just ignore love, build walls, decide who isn't going to hurt me based on past experiences, and be safe.

Mmmm that doesn't sound so good, in fact it looks like it leads to a road of bitterness... I'm pretty sure that's not what I was created for...

So what am I created for?

I'm going to pull out my bible and get back to you on that.

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Community

Everywhere I look I see evidence of the fact that we are made for community. Whether it's fans at a baseball game, friends in a tv show, or random people at jury duty we are made to do life together. The thing is... We're not meant just to do life with other people... How do I know this? Because the best, most fulfilling community is found in a healthy church. You see people always gather around something, there is something that draws them together... Sometimes it's similar interests, sometimes it's heartbreak or pain, and sometimes it's God.(the cool thing is God is a big God and most of the time it's Him without us knowing it).

Tonight was our small group expo at church. I was overwhelmed at the feeling of community, of belonging, of peace. It makes worship richer, communion more palpable, and my heart more open to receive all God has. I was looking around at the end of worship and I couldn't stop the tears of joy... So many people from all different walks of life and from all different seasons of life. There's the guerras and peases right next to the kalers and soon to be peoples :) I love it!!! The overwhelming thought of Who was bringing all of us together, of the beauty of a King who draws all of us to Him... Powerful and awe inspiring.

It's late and I don't know if this is really making sense. I simply couldn't stop thinking about the wonder of a God who creates us this way and then fulfills His creation for perfect community is found in Him..


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"I'm letting go of the life I planned for me and my dreams, losing control of my destiny, it feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe, it feels like I'm falling and this is the life for me..."

So excited about all God is doing and learning to trust and delight in Him :)

Grief

There have been a couple of situations in the past few weeks where I have come face to face with grief, my own and that of a friend.

I've learned I'm not very good at dealing with grief. My first thought is always, "this isn't how it's supposed to be!" (As if I'm all-knowing of every situation.) Now sometimes this thought is true. God has placed eternity in our hearts... Death was never a part of the plan and in some ways death isn't how it's supposed to be.

But then there's the pride in me that thinks I know how things are supposed to be, my stubborn will that says "Lord, I know better than You" or maybe worse: "how can you work this together for good?" questioning His sovereignty or ability to do things in my life is never a good thing and definitely never peaceful.

Then there's just the sadness. What do you do when you experience loss? Especially when you know and trust the character of God? Somehow there is joy in the midst of sadness but sometimes that makes for a weird mix of emotion.


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